The aftermath of my accident has been apparent in my 10 year old son Graeson. He has been clinging to me physically. The moment he get's home from school he has been wanting to be by my side. "Where are you going to be?" is the question he asks me over and over again everyday. My poor baby boy, he has been through so much. He is the oldest, and of course assumes a lot of responsibility. TOO MUCH. I'm always reminding him that he is still a child, and not the dad. Every night a bedtime he is a ball of anxiety. He has moved off of the top bunk, because he feels "far away from his family". So, we have a routine, after I put the kids to bed I stay in the room next to theirs for about 20 minutes. In that time he will yell for my name several times, and I will reassure him that I am there. Last night I had a moment of inspiration. I went in his room and with his help created a beautiful visualization. It included me being near him, and when I would leave that a white light would still connect us to each other, so we are ALWAYS joined and united. Immediately when I said this he relaxed and was deep in a peaceful sleep. Tonight, he was so happy and said, "All I have to say to myself, is 'I'm connected to Mom' and I feel so good, I fall right to sleep". WOW... I am so happy for him. I'm so grateful that we ARE so connected, and that my children are healing from their nightmare. My beautiful boy is fast asleep CONNECTED to lucky me!
That's beautiful Jamie! Graeson and Benjamin are close in age and Ben is always trying to be the man of the house too. He gets anxiety too worrying about things. I love how your inspiration and listening helped Graeson! I remember your children in primary and they were SO smart and just beautiful lil spirits! Love you!
ReplyDeleteThey are really close in age! Those little boys that want to take so much on their little shoulders... I miss you and Love you!!
DeleteBeautiful post... Thanks for sharing.. Have a great day!
ReplyDeleteThank you :)
DeleteThat was absolutely beautiful. Thanks for sharing. It reminds me that I might want to be more aware of what inspiration is there for me to listen to. Love ya Jamie!
ReplyDeleteThanks Zanny!! Don't you just LOVE those light bulb inspiring ideas that answer your prayer! Awareness is key... I'm working on it as well :)
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ReplyDeleteI just sent you a small donation, but mistakenly anonymously, well there is nothing to 'hide' :)
I wanted to let you know that you have touched me with those beautiful words - not just this blog message. It is beautiful to see someone stand so strong and tall in life, and to be so grateful for everything they have. You gave me a reminder that beautiful people exist everywhere on this planet and this makes life worth living. Thanks, and a big hug from a Dutch guy somewhere in northern Germany.
Dear Dutch Guy Somewhere in Northern Germany,
DeleteYOUR words have touched me deeply. Thank you so much for sharing your feelings. I am just like anyone else... living one day at a time, and making it the best I know how :) BLESSINGS back to you!!
SINCERELY,
Jamie
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ReplyDeleteIt is so great that Kids can help us realize who we are. McKinley would always come up to me if i was having a bad day and hug me or she knew it was time for a cuddle. She is the best and i am so glad that you have such great kids who know when you need them and when they need you. You are an inspiration Jamie.
Jon