My dear friends. Wow, it has been a long time since I've touched base. It has definitely been a continued roller coaster, but I feel like I'm on a rise above the "fog". Right now at this moment I am feeling so much hope and excitement. Mentalities that I have changed have been focused around not being a victim of my accident and the changes that have taken place. I realized that I'm leaning on my accident for fear of being expected to be the "old" Jamie. My husband and I have had extensive conversations around the idea of giving myself the benefit of the doubt, and not worrying about the over expectation of others. This is so liberating! I can be me, the real me, the new me, and be OK with me! I've realized a gigantic part of me has stopped living and I am engaging DAILY to push my personal boundaries. This is a habit I want to form. We went on a day family trip to a mountain beach on the river, a fam favorite. I was like a dead fish. Everything was dangerous and I wasn't involved whatsoever. We left with me feeling under stimulated and sad that my children weren't able to play with their "old" mom. Then the epiphany... if I continue with these habits of staying comfortable, by next year I might be staying in the car, watching through the windshield! NO! Not going to happen. So everyday I'm in a new habit...doing nothing dangerous, but not sitting snug and warm in my zone of complacency.