It's so interesting that the moment I put a lot of effort and focus into improving myself as well as putting more energy into others, you know... light bulbs of understanding shooting on, and motivation to DO IT... all of the sudden I get majorly discouraged. It seems like the last month my focus specifically has been on being "STABLE". What does stable mean to you? To me it means FIRM in my resolve to be a good mom, SECURE in my marriage, ROOTED in my spiritual beliefs. Right when I feel like "I've got this" I'm reminded that it's a process. The doctors warned me as I was leaving the hospital that mentally and emotionally the 1st 2 years after a brain injury, I will feel a little demented. I am extremely happy most of the time, but it seems like my highs are higher, and my lows are WAY lower. Manic.... the exact OPPOSITE of what I am focusing my spirit toward. Praying my guts out is what is getting me through this. Have you ever "gut" prayed? I mean pouring out your soul and seeking God? These are the kind of prayers that get me through my difficult times. I am so humbled by HIS love for me. HE is what brings grounded security. HE stabilizes my roller coaster. He has taken something that seems so terrible, and morphed it into a miracle. I love Him. So happy to celebrate Christ's birth next month!!