It's so interesting that the moment I put a lot of effort and focus into improving myself as well as putting more energy into others, you know... light bulbs of understanding shooting on, and motivation to DO IT... all of the sudden I get majorly discouraged. It seems like the last month my focus specifically has been on being "STABLE". What does stable mean to you? To me it means FIRM in my resolve to be a good mom, SECURE in my marriage, ROOTED in my spiritual beliefs. Right when I feel like "I've got this" I'm reminded that it's a process. The doctors warned me as I was leaving the hospital that mentally and emotionally the 1st 2 years after a brain injury, I will feel a little demented. I am extremely happy most of the time, but it seems like my highs are higher, and my lows are WAY lower. Manic.... the exact OPPOSITE of what I am focusing my spirit toward. Praying my guts out is what is getting me through this. Have you ever "gut" prayed? I mean pouring out your soul and seeking God? These are the kind of prayers that get me through my difficult times. I am so humbled by HIS love for me. HE is what brings grounded security. HE stabilizes my roller coaster. He has taken something that seems so terrible, and morphed it into a miracle. I love Him. So happy to celebrate Christ's birth next month!!
Jamie,
ReplyDeleteI can understand what you are going through with how my wife Liz goes through her struggles. She has major ups and downs and is constantly trying to be STABLE. She has had countless Dr's tell her what to expect and when things go good she starts to feel like things are turning around, and then something happens to crash that. Its a cycle and it does and will get better with time. I think Everyone goes through cycles like that. I know i do. You have been through such an ordeal and i know that the one thing you want to do is to get back to what you were before it happened, but as you have seen and felt, in some ways you are better than before. You have found out things about yourself that you may have never found without this happening. You are truly an inspiration Jamie. What you are doing to help others progress is really inspiring. You inspire me. Keep smiling and realize that it will get better. You should never lose hope and just remember that setbacks will happen, but they are never permanent.
Happy Holidays.
Jon, I know you guys have been through SO MUCH. I admire both of your strength!Thank you so much for your uplifting words. What a great friend you are!
DeleteYou got this girlie!! One day at a time...one moment at a time, one problem at a time. If anyone can do it, YOU can!! HUGS, Tracey
ReplyDeleteYou are so right.... ONE thing at a time... ONE step.. thanks... we can do this !:)
DeleteYour posts make me cry, I especially love the pics you just posted. My brother had a serious brain injury with surgery several years ago and I think the emotional aspects were at least as hard for him as the physical. He just kept moving forward like you are and he is doing great. On my down days I always allow myself to cry and wallow for a little, then pick myself up and keep moving forward. You are entitled to a rough day now and then.
ReplyDeleteThank you. Emotionally it has been WAY more difficult. I am so glad he is doing well. Seriously thank you for sharing. The perspective of others is so helpful!! Blessings to you!
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